Monday, May 17, 2010
Out of curiousity...
Where are all my fellow Aussie bandits from? I'm in Country Victoria, Gippsland to be somewhat precise.
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Time for a blog!
I thought I'd better come in and have a chat.
I have one NSV to tell you that I'm NOT happy about. I have to take my wedding and engagement ring off. :( They're no slipping off my finger but they're slipping around too much, and they'll wear together too much. I haven't lost enough for them to go on another finger yet, so for now, it's off. I won't get them resized until I've got to goal. So a good thing, but a bad thing all at once.
I went out for dinner last night for the first time since being banded (not counting trips to fast food with the family etc). I got what I thought would be a small meal, and it was STILL way too much for me to eat. Sitting there I realised that I'd have EASILY polished it all off pre-band, so this band... it's a good thing.
I have restriction. I'm not super super restricted but I'm also not super super hungry either. Does the "sweet spot" come with bells and whistles? I always thought that the way people spoke about it I'd just *know* (like that magical feeling when you're in love LOL), but this has seemed a very boring "oh yep, I think this is a good fill" type feeling. Doesn't really matter, as long as it's working. It was just a bit of a let down, that's all. LOL!
I went shopping with my Mum the other day and had to stop myself from the old habit of buying something because it fits. My purchase of 4 items in one shop was taken down to one nice, white shirt. I put back the two pairs of pants and the one casual hooded top that I was going to get even though they weren't *perfect* but that they fit. I don't need to do that anymore. Oh and the shirt was a size 20 - pre-band to get into a shirt (not just a "top" if you know what I mean) I'd have had to be a 26 for sure, so that's awesome! I wore it with my denim jeans (another thing I've only just started wearing again, I was never comfy in them when super fat) when we went out to dinner (was a pub meal before our school trivia night, not a really flash restaurant or anything).
Saturday I went to the gym (I'd missed Friday as I shopped instead) and I cannot believe how much exercise mojo I had! Instead of 30 minutes on the treadmill with 1 minute jog every 4 minutes, I did only 20 minutes on the treadmill but just under HALF of that was jogging!!! I can't believe I was able to! Maximum jog was about 3 minutes at once I think. Then I went pretty darn hard on the exercise bike and went 6km!! I've never been that far before. I was very proud of myself I have to say. And rightly so!
Anyway that's my story this week. I'm not sure there will be much movement on the scales this week (I wasn't all that well behaved with the table snacks at the trivia night) but I will be happy nonetheless, I am telling myself that. LOL!
I have one NSV to tell you that I'm NOT happy about. I have to take my wedding and engagement ring off. :( They're no slipping off my finger but they're slipping around too much, and they'll wear together too much. I haven't lost enough for them to go on another finger yet, so for now, it's off. I won't get them resized until I've got to goal. So a good thing, but a bad thing all at once.
I went out for dinner last night for the first time since being banded (not counting trips to fast food with the family etc). I got what I thought would be a small meal, and it was STILL way too much for me to eat. Sitting there I realised that I'd have EASILY polished it all off pre-band, so this band... it's a good thing.
I have restriction. I'm not super super restricted but I'm also not super super hungry either. Does the "sweet spot" come with bells and whistles? I always thought that the way people spoke about it I'd just *know* (like that magical feeling when you're in love LOL), but this has seemed a very boring "oh yep, I think this is a good fill" type feeling. Doesn't really matter, as long as it's working. It was just a bit of a let down, that's all. LOL!
I went shopping with my Mum the other day and had to stop myself from the old habit of buying something because it fits. My purchase of 4 items in one shop was taken down to one nice, white shirt. I put back the two pairs of pants and the one casual hooded top that I was going to get even though they weren't *perfect* but that they fit. I don't need to do that anymore. Oh and the shirt was a size 20 - pre-band to get into a shirt (not just a "top" if you know what I mean) I'd have had to be a 26 for sure, so that's awesome! I wore it with my denim jeans (another thing I've only just started wearing again, I was never comfy in them when super fat) when we went out to dinner (was a pub meal before our school trivia night, not a really flash restaurant or anything).
Saturday I went to the gym (I'd missed Friday as I shopped instead) and I cannot believe how much exercise mojo I had! Instead of 30 minutes on the treadmill with 1 minute jog every 4 minutes, I did only 20 minutes on the treadmill but just under HALF of that was jogging!!! I can't believe I was able to! Maximum jog was about 3 minutes at once I think. Then I went pretty darn hard on the exercise bike and went 6km!! I've never been that far before. I was very proud of myself I have to say. And rightly so!
Anyway that's my story this week. I'm not sure there will be much movement on the scales this week (I wasn't all that well behaved with the table snacks at the trivia night) but I will be happy nonetheless, I am telling myself that. LOL!
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Monday doesn't like me
I think I need to move my weigh in day to Tuesday. Monday just doesn't like me. I can't count how many times I've weighed myself on a Monday then next day done it again (although I'm not to admit out loud that I sometimes weigh myself more than weekly LOL) and it's HEAPS better.
Take this week for example. Yesterday I weighed in at 106.2kg. Which is great, no denying. But today... it's 105.4kg!! Heaps better still! So it's official, Monday sucks. LOL!
Take this week for example. Yesterday I weighed in at 106.2kg. Which is great, no denying. But today... it's 105.4kg!! Heaps better still! So it's official, Monday sucks. LOL!
Saturday, May 08, 2010
NSV
I had an NSV today - My butt actually fitted on the swing!!
We took the kids to the park and I've really missed swinging (it's so freeing!) because my butt would never fit on the swing. But today, it did!!
It felt SO GOOD swinging away!!
PS - When you type "adult swinging" into Google Images to get a picture to put in here, like I did, you get some VERY interesting pictures, let me tell you!! ROFL!!
We took the kids to the park and I've really missed swinging (it's so freeing!) because my butt would never fit on the swing. But today, it did!!
It felt SO GOOD swinging away!!
PS - When you type "adult swinging" into Google Images to get a picture to put in here, like I did, you get some VERY interesting pictures, let me tell you!! ROFL!!
Friday, May 07, 2010
So annoying
All my fill appointments are late in the afternoon so that my husband will be home in time to watch my kids, so I don't have to drag them along with me. Which is really annoying because I weigh more then!
Yesterday at the appointment I weighed in at 107.6kg.
Today, first thing in the morning, now that TOM has arrived "properly", I'm down to 106kg! Fluctuation is annoying!
Yesterday at the appointment I weighed in at 107.6kg.
Today, first thing in the morning, now that TOM has arrived "properly", I'm down to 106kg! Fluctuation is annoying!
Thursday, May 06, 2010
A fill, a book, someone named TOM and a quote
Today was surgeon visit day. I went in and not surprisingly didn't have the best weigh in ever. I was 107.6kg. Still down from my last visit to him but up a kg from my weight earlier on. Probably (hopefully) because TOM arrived (damn him, he's such an annoying visitor!), so even they noted I could have excess fluid on board.
We talked about how I'd been going, if I was able to eat "everything". I told her the only thing I'd had a little trouble with (besides when I ate too quickly and didn't chew properly) was steak, that it went down but I certainly felt it. She said I clearly have restriction but not quite enough. So I have a fill of 0.25ml which puts me up to 5.75ml in a 10 ml band. Lets hope this takes me to the sweet spot! No more visits for 6 weeks this time, so they must be fairly happy still.
I bought this book there (they bought them in bulk so I got it heaps cheaper).
What's great about it for me is that it's written for us Aussies, and has our products in it. Basically it has a lot of dietary advice specifically for bandits and sleevits (do people with sleeves have a name?), with LOTS of pictures. The pictures are good because you can see what they're talking about clearer when they talk of portions etc.
I haven't read it properly yet, just flicked through. I'll blog fascinating things I find.
And it had a great quote in it:
There is a lot of truth to that. I am well on my way on the journey, but as I go I find different things that I need to learn to STAY on the journey. I'm learning the difference between stomach hunger and mental/emotional hunger. I'm learning which foods fill me up longest, I'm learning which foods just make me want to eat more and more of them (damn you Salt & Vinegar chips!!), I'm learning eating is an addiction, I'm learning that exercise can be fun, and I'm learning that the band helps, it does not do it all for you.
There is lots more to learn. I have to create a whole new lifestyle if I want to stop this struggle I've had for so many years. Weight is the symptom. When the weight comes off, you still have the same issues if you don't deal with them and heal. No matter how hard this journey is though, I'm glad I'm on it.
We talked about how I'd been going, if I was able to eat "everything". I told her the only thing I'd had a little trouble with (besides when I ate too quickly and didn't chew properly) was steak, that it went down but I certainly felt it. She said I clearly have restriction but not quite enough. So I have a fill of 0.25ml which puts me up to 5.75ml in a 10 ml band. Lets hope this takes me to the sweet spot! No more visits for 6 weeks this time, so they must be fairly happy still.
I bought this book there (they bought them in bulk so I got it heaps cheaper).
I haven't read it properly yet, just flicked through. I'll blog fascinating things I find.
And it had a great quote in it:
"Reaching your destination is not the end of your 'journey'. Finding a way to comfortably live in this new place determines whether you stay."
There is a lot of truth to that. I am well on my way on the journey, but as I go I find different things that I need to learn to STAY on the journey. I'm learning the difference between stomach hunger and mental/emotional hunger. I'm learning which foods fill me up longest, I'm learning which foods just make me want to eat more and more of them (damn you Salt & Vinegar chips!!), I'm learning eating is an addiction, I'm learning that exercise can be fun, and I'm learning that the band helps, it does not do it all for you.
There is lots more to learn. I have to create a whole new lifestyle if I want to stop this struggle I've had for so many years. Weight is the symptom. When the weight comes off, you still have the same issues if you don't deal with them and heal. No matter how hard this journey is though, I'm glad I'm on it.
Monday, May 03, 2010
Today is bought to you by the number...
106.6
106.6kg that is. My weight seems very up and down lately. It is TOM now (just about) so that will probably have an impact), but I also know I need another fill. That will be Thursday afternoon. The last fill had an effect for sure, but not enough - not worth the AU$11,000 I paid for the surgery yet! I hope to get some more in, I want that sweet spot.
I'm getting the drift of eating when I'm actually hungry rather than at meal times though - some habits are hard to break, and I have to admit that's taken a while. I'm having trouble with craving those bad snacks, in particular salt & vinegar chips (or crisps wherever you are). I don't eat them because I'm hungry, I eat them because I'm bored and they taste good (the old food addiction problem)! I'm eating far less of them than I did before but if I'm honest in the last few weeks I've had a smallish serving maybe 3 times a week. I just really shouldn't be. Eyes on the prize though, it's all about changing my bad habits for a new healthy lifestyle, and, after all, I've only been doing this for just under 3 months!!!
106.6kg that is. My weight seems very up and down lately. It is TOM now (just about) so that will probably have an impact), but I also know I need another fill. That will be Thursday afternoon. The last fill had an effect for sure, but not enough - not worth the AU$11,000 I paid for the surgery yet! I hope to get some more in, I want that sweet spot.
I'm getting the drift of eating when I'm actually hungry rather than at meal times though - some habits are hard to break, and I have to admit that's taken a while. I'm having trouble with craving those bad snacks, in particular salt & vinegar chips (or crisps wherever you are). I don't eat them because I'm hungry, I eat them because I'm bored and they taste good (the old food addiction problem)! I'm eating far less of them than I did before but if I'm honest in the last few weeks I've had a smallish serving maybe 3 times a week. I just really shouldn't be. Eyes on the prize though, it's all about changing my bad habits for a new healthy lifestyle, and, after all, I've only been doing this for just under 3 months!!!
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